Bright day, blue skies and a sunroof...

Today would have been the perfect day but I had to get a speeding ticket. It was totally random and lame but oh well. I got a ticket for 30 mph in a 25 mph zone. I had no idea that the street I was driving down was only 25 mph, I was just moving with traffic and got zinged at random. I had no idea the cop was pulling me over at first and when I realized it I thought it was because I didn't have a front license plate, but sure enough it was because I was speeding. Since I'm almost off probation I'm not going to raise a stink about it. No sense coming this far and blowing it because of a minor speeding ticket. So I'll pay the $50.00 for traffic school so it won't show on my record and my insurance company won't find out and move on.

Other than that it was a bright sunny day that allowed me to roam around with the sunroof wide open. It makes me giddy with joy to hear the turbo whine when I hit the gas. ;) Tee Hee!

I'm in serious need of a break from work. I've been working way too much. Saturdays, Sundays, holidays, nights, whenever! Not that I hate my job, I love it and it keeps my mind from other things (drugs/Sara) that could be bad to think about. But I need something else to busy myself with other than work. I would just take some days off but I would end up working part of the day anyways. Hell, even when I'm sick at home I'm still doing something work related. There is no such thing as a day off. So I need to plan something to do. I don't know what yet but I'll think of something. Work is going great though! Amoung all the work and stress is fun and potential. All the hard work of all the employees is going to pay off in the end.

It's taken some time but I actually buy things for myself again. I don't know why but for the last 10-12 months I've had a hard time spending money. I would feel really guilty and scared when I did. I don't know why but I think it might have something to do with the fact that when I was doing drugs you only spent money on drugs and had to steal everything else. You were also always on your last buck and never knew how you were going to get more money. So I guess there's a little part of my brain that is scared that I won't get any more money and I shouldn't spend it, which is retarded.

Over the last couple weeks I have bought a stack of new Playstation 2 games which I enjoy very much. Plus they were used and I got a sweet deal on them.

4 PS2 games for $40 bucks! I got Wipeout: Fusion ($5.00), Devil May Cry 2 ($11.00), Castlevania: Lament of Innocence ($11.00) and Silent Hill 4: The Room ($14.00). Castlevania is sweet and that I what I've been playing mostly.

I also bought a new music CD which was weird because I already had this album in mp3 (even though I can't listen to mp3's in my car). I bought Paul Van Dyk - Reflections (2003) which is a great album and I suggest that everyone either download or buy a copy of this CD. Even if you don't like techno I think you will like at least half of the songs on it.

There is one song on this album which I completely love. If any one song could sum up the last year of my life it would be this one. Download the mp3 here.

-Time of Our Lives

There's a time for us to let go
There's a time for holding on
A time to speak, a time to listen
There's a time for us to grow

There's a time for laying low down
There's a time for getting high
A time for peace, a time for fighting
A time to live, a time to die

A time to scream, a time for silence
A time for truth against the lie
A time for faith, a time for science
There's a time for us to shine

There is a time for mixed believing
There's a time to understand
A time to hurt, a time for healing
A time to run, and to make a stand

Oh this is the time
Of our lives...

-Paul Van Dyk