Once upon an mbh...
I haven't been writing much in my blog lately. Haven't been inspired I guess. I've thought of a ton of things to write but when I sit down in front of the computer the cursor sits at the "Title:" section of the blog entry blinking and mocking me. Mocking me because I can't transfer the thoughts in my head down to my hands to start typing. I really shouldn't wait to be inspired to write something. I should just write anything. It's not like there is a HUGE point to my blog other than to write random thoughts and events in my life. So here it goes... random thoughts from a semi-inspired mind...
It's Christmas time again. That's good stuff.
I was in Las Vegas last weekend for the birthday party of my boss and it was okay. It was only okay because Angela (the love of my life) wasn't there :( She was in Pennsylvania. However, she let my friends and I stay at her place which was really nice of her. Well she is really nice you know! It was still weird and sad being at her place without her around. I missed her so much. I got so used to having her there that when she wasn't there it made me realize how much I need her around and what a big part of my life she is.
While at dinner at the Venetian I got to meet a developer that works with the company I work for. He is from Scotland and was a really cool guy. Tim and I sat around talking with him long after the dinner was over. After the dinner we went back to Angela's and I fell asleep without her there :( how depressing it was!
Angela is back from PA and I'm going down to see her on Christmas day and spend a few days with her so we can have our own Christmas. I'm really excited. I feel like I haven't seen her in forever.
The end of the year is rapidly descending upon me. It freaks me out really. 2005 just started! This time last year I was so wrapped up in the "holy shit I'm a recovering drug addict" thing that it just dawned on me that I really don't think about that so much anymore. I figured it would happen someday but I didn't realize that it would be so quickly. I'm thankful for that though because I don't want that dark cloud of my past looming over me the rest of my life. I know that it will always be there in the distance because it is a life changing thing that happened to me but over the years it will gradually get further and further from my mind and the things that are happening in my life. I have postive things going on presently in my life that take the place of those negative things; Angela, work, etc. Angela mainly :) I think about her so much I don't have time to think about drugs, my past and all those negative things. I love her so much.
Anyways, I'm all blogged out for today...
-mbh signing off...
It's Christmas time again. That's good stuff.
I was in Las Vegas last weekend for the birthday party of my boss and it was okay. It was only okay because Angela (the love of my life) wasn't there :( She was in Pennsylvania. However, she let my friends and I stay at her place which was really nice of her. Well she is really nice you know! It was still weird and sad being at her place without her around. I missed her so much. I got so used to having her there that when she wasn't there it made me realize how much I need her around and what a big part of my life she is.
While at dinner at the Venetian I got to meet a developer that works with the company I work for. He is from Scotland and was a really cool guy. Tim and I sat around talking with him long after the dinner was over. After the dinner we went back to Angela's and I fell asleep without her there :( how depressing it was!
Angela is back from PA and I'm going down to see her on Christmas day and spend a few days with her so we can have our own Christmas. I'm really excited. I feel like I haven't seen her in forever.
The end of the year is rapidly descending upon me. It freaks me out really. 2005 just started! This time last year I was so wrapped up in the "holy shit I'm a recovering drug addict" thing that it just dawned on me that I really don't think about that so much anymore. I figured it would happen someday but I didn't realize that it would be so quickly. I'm thankful for that though because I don't want that dark cloud of my past looming over me the rest of my life. I know that it will always be there in the distance because it is a life changing thing that happened to me but over the years it will gradually get further and further from my mind and the things that are happening in my life. I have postive things going on presently in my life that take the place of those negative things; Angela, work, etc. Angela mainly :) I think about her so much I don't have time to think about drugs, my past and all those negative things. I love her so much.
Anyways, I'm all blogged out for today...
-mbh signing off...
posted by mbh at 12/21/2005 07:03:00 PM
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