Thoughts on a napkin...

Chasing more than life...

I write this as I sit at a table in Hennessey's Tavern in Las Vegas, NV. I'm writing this blog on a napkin. Cool huh? I thought so. I love writing. Finally Angela and I got to see each other after a long tortureous month of being apart. It was so nice to see her as I walked into Hennessey's late last night. A sight for sore eyes. Very sore. We had a wonderful night last night. No more (and I mean NO MORE) going a month without seeing Angela. I want and need her way too much. Plus I get nutty after about three weeks apart. So no more of that. Period.

So, I've been sitting here at a window table watching people walk by going about their Saturday night. Chasing a million different lives. Most people appear to have no where to go and nothing to do. Wandering around aimlessly through the semi-ghetto downtown of Vegas. Many drunks, bums and street rats. As I was sitting here watching the crowds a person appeared at my window speaking I assumed to me but I couldn't hear what they were saying. I couldn't tell if it was a man or a woman. Just an extremely overweight obese person. As quickly as they appeared at the window they were gone. Moments later the person was standing at my side by the table. Weird? Totally. In a soft barely audible voice the man/woman? asked me if I was going to eat my unfinished chili-cheese fries. WTF? Okay, this weirded me out. I said "No" and the person snatched the plate and wandered outside to sit and eat the now cold leftover chili-cheese fries. I mean it was roughly one in the morning.

Beggars, drunkards and partiers chasing whatever broken things they chase. Las Vegas is a depressing town to me. I didn't always view it this way. I mean this downtown Vegas. Depressing. The trash, the lights, the sounds, the people, the filth. Oh well. One thought I constantly have while watching these people is "Better them than me." I'm glad my life has somewhat of a purpose and some meaning. Even though those purposes and meanings are sometimes vague. There are times when I feel that I too am wandering around aimlessly through my own life. Life has so many twists, turns and winding roads that I guess it IS okay to wander aimlessly if it brings a happiness and positive engery to yourself.

-mbh signing off...