Thursday, September 15, 2005

Blueprints for a bad mood...

So I woke up this morning and by the time I was out the door on my way to work I was in a bad mood. I was destined to have a bad day. As I was driving to work I was all pissed off cause the one lane highway I have to drive from where I live to the freeway had that one car that was driving slower than cold tar which I was stuck behind. Well, I was thinking about why I was in such a bad mood so quickly into the day.

First off, I was way late waking up which instantly put me in a hurry to get to work. Right before I hopped in the shower I was messaged by my boss with things to do and I wasn't even at work yet (even though I should have been). I drug my tired ass up to the shower and started the water and did my morning push-ups which I could only do 24 when I usually do 30 so that pissed me off. By the time I got out of the shower I was pretty much in a bad mood. When I walked out of the bathroom my mom was nagging on me for who knows what which made me wish I didn't live at home (which I'm saving all my money to get outta there). I got dressed, ate a piece of toast, grabbed my laptop and my key's and left for work.

So I'm driving behind this car being pissed off and I started thinking "Why am I in such a bad mood already? Why am I in a bad mood at all?". I started breaking down all the events that put me in a bad mood and once I started thinking about them they all seemed so lame and not worth getting pissed about. I thought about something positive for each supposedly negative thing that happened.

This is what I came up with:

1. I woke up late and I'm going to be late for work.

At least I got out of bed instead of calling in sick or something and the fact that I have a job and it's not like anyone is going to be pissed at me for being late. My job is a nice comfy job where I sit in front of a computer doing something I love. I thought back to when I worked at Neways and how shitty that job was. Getting up at 4am and if I'm more than 5 minutes late I get bitched at. And that job was crazy manual labor which sucked! So being late this morning really didn't seem like that big of deal once I thought about it. Plus I got to sleep a little longer.

2. My boss messaged me with things to do.

I should have already been at work and that is where she thought I was. She knows she can depend on me to get things done and that is why she came to me with the tasks. So I know I'm a valuable asset to her and the company.

3. I could only do 24 push-up's instead of my normal 30.

This one is really lame. At least I am putting forth the effort to do push-up's in the the first place and I was sore from doing 30 right before I went to bed the night before.

4. My mom was nagging on me for something I can't even remember.

At least my parents have been cool enough to give me a place to live until I get my feet back on the ground. And I have been putting a little money away so I can eventually get a place of my own so it isn't like this is a permanent arrangement.

5. The stupid car in front of me is driving really slow.

Slow drivers piss everyone off but you can only drive as fast as the car in front of you. There isn't anything I could have done about it and so what, they made me a whole 45 seconds later than I already was.

Once I thought about all these things it didn't seem like that much of a big deal anymore.

I think about being in a bad mood and having a bad attitude like one of those magic pictures that you have to stare at for a while to see the big cool picture. At a first glance it's a stupid mass jumble of crap that doesn't mean anything and sucks to look at. Something negative. Step back a few feet, take a breath, relax and focus and you'll see the big beautiful picture. Something postive.

You look at the things that happen to you and at the first glance they are all these bad things that suck and put you in a bad mood but if you just sit for a second, take a breath, relax and focus on them they become something petty and not important enough to get so worked up about.

So once I thought about all these things I just put on some music and enjoyed my drive to work and spared myself a bad mood and probably a bad day.

-Life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it.
-Charles Swindoll

Friday, September 09, 2005

Post traumatic blog syndrome...

It's been almost a month since I've posted anything to my log er my blog so I figured it was about time I stopped being a lazy butthole and post something. I can't believe it's September already. That's a good thing because I'm ready for the cooler weather and turtleneck sweaters and stuff like that. In less than two weeks I will be heading down to Las Vegas to help setup for a conference at the MGM Grand for the company I work for. I'll get to stay with Angela (sweet!) for almost a week straight. That's awesome. I miss her a ton even though I was just down there like 4 days ago. She's the love of my life and I can't stand to be away from her :) Things have been great between us. I seriously haven't had anyone ever treat me so great like the way she does. For once I am a person with real feelings instead of a doormat! hahaha

Things are busy busy busy at work as usual. Trying to hit deadlines and such. A couple weeks ago I was practically living at work. Not by choice but because I really didn't have anywhere else to go. My parents sold their condo and are renting a house while their new house is being built so I'm crashing there with them.

Anyways, I should get back to work.