Rawr...

Yay for the kitty! Last Saturday Angela and I decided to get a kitty together and looked around all afternoon but we were unable to find that right one. Today however, Angela was able to find the purrfect little kitten! We haven't figured out a name for him yet but once we get familiar with him I'm sure we'll pick the right name.

Here is a picture of the kitten sleeping:

Pursuing a life of idealism...

Idealism. What is true idealism? It changes from person to person depending on their wants and desires. Something that might be ideal for one person might not be ideal for another. It could be that what one person thinks is ideal for another but not themself. Ideals are like opinions, everyone has it set in their minds of what is ideal and what is not ideal.

I've been thinking about idealism for a good part of the day. What is ideal for me to be happy in my life? You ask almost anyone and a some or all of these will be said: money, success, love, power or fame. All these things could be great but not all (or any) are necessary to live a happy and fulfilling life. These things could also bring misery. Do things need to be ideal for one to be happy?

So what is ideal for me? Do I need things ideal to be happy?

I can say right now that my life has been anything but ideal but I can truely say that I am as happy as my current situation allows me to be. What does that mean? Well, it means that though things could always get better and more "ideal" I am making the best of all the things that I have in my life and being happy with them knowing that I am doing everything in my power to make things ideal. People often hear me bitch about how I wish my life would progress faster and if only this or that would happen I would be happier and things would more ideal. I get caught up in the "if onlys" and tend to keep looking in the distance for something that may or may not be there while forgetting about what is right in front of me.

The person I love most lives 360 miles away; if only we lived closer...
I'm overworked and definately underpaid; if only I could make more money...
I'm sick of living in my parents basement; if only I could get a place of my own...

"If only this would happen! If only things would progress quicker! If only this... if only that!"

When right in front of me:
I have the most wonderfully amazing girlfriend I could ever hope to have love me. Even if she lives so far away and I miss her so very much at least I have her and I can see and talk to her everyday. Eventually we will be together I have no doubt.

I have a great supportive family that would do anything to help me even if it does suck living in their basement I know that it is only temporary and I will eventually get a place with my girlfriend.

I have a job that I am truely happy at with great potential to be very successful even though I am very underpaid and overworked but as the success might not ever come to fruition I have a job that I enjoy so I will take the risk that something greater might come of it.


While things may not be as ideal as they could be, they are definately ideal enough for me to be happy and enjoy my life. As I progress in my life, each day forward will get more ideal as long as I put forth the effort to better my situation.

Kinda drifting in the abstract...

ab·stract (adj.)

1. Considered apart from concrete existence: an abstract concept.
2. Not applied or practical; theoretical.
3. Difficult to understand; abstruse: abstract philosophical problems.
4. Thought of or stated without reference to a specific instance: abstract words like truth and justice.
5. Impersonal, as in attitude or views.

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Do you ever get that feeling you're just kind of floating around in your existence? You don't really know where you should be or what you should be doing? That you just live day-to-day putting one foot in front of the other with hopes that you'll figure things out along the way? That your life is so jumbled and chaotic and the harder you think about it or more you try to bring things into focus the more skewed they get? That the crushing weight on your shoulders is in all actuality the unrealistic expectations you have for yourself and how your life should be? Where do you draw the line between unrealistic and realistic when it comes to what you should expect from yourself?

I am only human after all.

Maybe that is why you always hear "Focus on the simple and small things in life." It is true the the simple things in life bring you happiness. It's because they are just that, simple. Maybe my complex human brain can only comprehend the simple things of life.

In a world too complex for its own good I'll be happy with the simple things.

I can handle that.