Happy Thanksgiving...

Today is the best day of the year, Thanksgiving! Woot. Turkey, family and videogames! What a great combination. I wish Angela could have made it up for the holiday weekend but she had to work :( But she is here in spirit and heart.

A Happy Thanksgiving to all my friends all around the world.

Time for a nap and some more World of Warcraft.

The giving of the thanks and stuff...

With Thanksgiving right around the corner it's that time of year where I start to think about all the things that I am thankful for. It might be a little early for this blog post but when is it too early to be thankful for things?

Things that I am thankful for (in no specific order):

For being alive.
For being clean and sober.
For Angela.
For my job.
For my parents.
For my family.
For my friends.
For rehab.
For my bishop.
For music.
For books.
For writing.
For movies.
For my computer.
For good T.V. shows.
For mp3s.
For the internet.
For videogames.
For payday.
For my car.
For gas prices going down.
For video conferencing.
For blogs.
For the Utah Jazz.
For playing cards.

And for many many other things.

Happy Thanksgiving.

[Life]s_what_you_make_(it) [Extended]...

In the last three years I could say that I have had the most life altering, progress making days I have ever in my entire life.

However,

If I were to mark my path on my road called life the day I got out of rehab and started taking steps forward watching as the months on the calendar dropped like fall leaves to the present day (almost two years later) I've been frustrated to look at my feet and see the original mark sitting there. [Have I really not made any progress in the last two years of my life?] I'm sure people who know me would argue that I have made progress by leaps and bounds.

[I] just don't feel like (I) have...

Why do I have such a difficult time getting past (who) I [was]?

[Why] does the junkie, cracked out person I was loom over_me_like a dark cloud?

Do I cling to the past in fear|hope that if I screw up again I will have an excuse? A [justification]?

Was I ever really a drug addict?

Did I ever really do all those things?

Was that really [me]?

I never changed because that was never who I was. I was running|escaping but never really going anywhere. I merely changed aspects of my life for the worse but stood in the same spot. Just as I have done these last couple years. I've changed things in my life but I'm still in the same spot. I've been in the same spot my whole life.

Life's what you make it|And I'm going back to bed...

Cards, blogs and all that Jazz...

It's now November, Jazz season is underway. So far they are 2 - 0 and playing the Pheonix Suns right now. Last time I checked the the score the Jazz were up by 3 points mid-way through the second quarter. I sure hope the Jazz can stay healthy this year. If they can I really think they could make the playoffs and make some noise.

Angela and I are playing Solitaire Showdown on MSN right now. So far she has won 350 to my 211. As you can see she whoops my butt.

Anyways, I figured I'd update my blog since it has been a while. Nothing too important to say except I'm still around.

-mbh

Update: Jazz 49 - Suns 44 at half-time.