Re-winding 2OO5...

2005; over.
2006; minutes away.

2005 Recap:

All in all I'd say that 2005 was a pretty good year. The year when Angela and I finally decided to take our friendship to the next level. A decision that was definately a good one. She has made this year enjoyable and fun. I'm extremely thankful and blessed to have her in my life. I hope that she will be along for the ride through 2006 and beyond. I LOVE YOU ANGELA! VBM!

I got rid of my favorite truck because of all the memories that were attached to it. Another good move I would say. I've spent the year trying to put some distance between rehab and the present time. It's worked pretty well. At the beginning of the year I would still dwell on the recovering drug addict things and the death of Sara but as the year rolled along it all just started to fade into the distance. Not that I don't think about all those things anymore but they just aren't in my face all the time and on my mind.

I'm still working at the same job and I have taken on more and more responsibilities which is a catch 22. By taking on more responsibilities I'm becoming quite the asset to the company but on the other hand I get a lot of work dumped on me because I am reliable and get things done. For instance, just this week the hard drive in our main fileserver went bad. Of course everyone freaked out (including myself) and looked to me to fix it. The person responsible to do the backup of the drives hadn't been doing them so it looked pretty bleek. At the end of the day things were screwed and everyone left to go start their long holiday weekends leaving me to resolve the problems. Well, I knew that if the data that was on the drive that crashed couldn't be recovered that the company was going to suffer a major setback or spend thousands of dollars in data recovery. So I spent my Friday imaging the drive with my fingers crossed, buying new drives and doing my best to fix things. Then today I spent all day extracting as many files from the completed image (thank God) which was very time consuming but worth it because almost all the data was recovered. Basically if I wouldn't have done anything about the problem then nothing would have been done. This is one thing that I wish the guys on my team would do. Take responsibility. Step up and get things done. Not wait around for me to do it. I've bitched and I'm done with this subject.

Oh, it's New Years! Happy New Years!

Time for new year resolutions! Oh joy. One thing people always do is make unrealistic new year resolutions and then they wonder why they can't keep them. I'm going to keep mine simple, realistic and attainable.

So here we go,

mbh's 2006 New Year Resolutions:

1. Communicate better with Angela and keep on doing my best to treat her the best I can. Not that this is really a problem but there are times when the communications could have been better on my part.

2. Hang out with my best friends more. I haven't really hung out with them in a while and I miss doing it. So I'm going to try more this year to go see my friends.

3. Save more money. Money + bank = good.

4. Get my own place and move out on my own. As much as I like living at home with the folks and not paying rent, I think it's time to move on.

5. Work smarter and not harder. There are times when I put hours and hours into work but never have anything to show for it. I need to plan my days and weeks better at work to efficiently get tasks done.

6. Manage my time better. This also falls under the "work smarter not harder" one but this can also be related to everything in my life.

7. Try to get on normal eating and sleeping patterns. I eat and sleep at the weirdest times and I know it isn't healthy. I'm going to try to eat better and at regular times and get to sleep at a decent time so I feel refreshed and rested during the day. There are too many times when I feel like I'm dragging at work.

Anyways, these are very reasonable I think so we'll see how I do in a year from now.

Happy New Year to all my friends and family around this small earth!

Where ever you go, there you are...

Once upon an mbh...

I haven't been writing much in my blog lately. Haven't been inspired I guess. I've thought of a ton of things to write but when I sit down in front of the computer the cursor sits at the "Title:" section of the blog entry blinking and mocking me. Mocking me because I can't transfer the thoughts in my head down to my hands to start typing. I really shouldn't wait to be inspired to write something. I should just write anything. It's not like there is a HUGE point to my blog other than to write random thoughts and events in my life. So here it goes... random thoughts from a semi-inspired mind...

It's Christmas time again. That's good stuff.

I was in Las Vegas last weekend for the birthday party of my boss and it was okay. It was only okay because Angela (the love of my life) wasn't there :( She was in Pennsylvania. However, she let my friends and I stay at her place which was really nice of her. Well she is really nice you know! It was still weird and sad being at her place without her around. I missed her so much. I got so used to having her there that when she wasn't there it made me realize how much I need her around and what a big part of my life she is.

While at dinner at the Venetian I got to meet a developer that works with the company I work for. He is from Scotland and was a really cool guy. Tim and I sat around talking with him long after the dinner was over. After the dinner we went back to Angela's and I fell asleep without her there :( how depressing it was!

Angela is back from PA and I'm going down to see her on Christmas day and spend a few days with her so we can have our own Christmas. I'm really excited. I feel like I haven't seen her in forever.

The end of the year is rapidly descending upon me. It freaks me out really. 2005 just started! This time last year I was so wrapped up in the "holy shit I'm a recovering drug addict" thing that it just dawned on me that I really don't think about that so much anymore. I figured it would happen someday but I didn't realize that it would be so quickly. I'm thankful for that though because I don't want that dark cloud of my past looming over me the rest of my life. I know that it will always be there in the distance because it is a life changing thing that happened to me but over the years it will gradually get further and further from my mind and the things that are happening in my life. I have postive things going on presently in my life that take the place of those negative things; Angela, work, etc. Angela mainly :) I think about her so much I don't have time to think about drugs, my past and all those negative things. I love her so much.

Anyways, I'm all blogged out for today...

-mbh signing off...