Good mood free-for-all...

It isn't even 9AM and I'm in a great mood. I have a feeling that today will be a great day! I went to bed extra early and woke up extra early because I had to get the IM and safety done on my Audi so I could get my license plates. I arrived at the IM place at around 8 and they were finished in about ten minutes. Once I was done there It was time to head to work. I had a great drive to work. I set my cruise control at about 68 and just enjoyed my drive. I don't know how accurate those little MPG computers are in cars but when I got to work it said I had averaged 38 miles to the gallon which is amazing! Even if it was off by two or three that is still great.

On my drive to work this morning I thought a lot about the place where I used to work. I remember times driving to that job in the summer morning being just as excited and happy as I was this morning. I thought about what went wrong and what had changed. There were many reasons. For one the company wasn't living up to anyones expectations. Sure the company was growing but I feel that it wasn't taking the employees along with it. After years of hard work and literally not much to show for it can turn many attitudes sour. Just this last week I have done a lot of research on my old company. Using Google, joining message boards and reading anything and everything I could. I found a lot of disturbing things. For one I always had believed that when my boss would tell everyone what people thought about the company. That people loved us and were positive about the things we were doing. The one thing I didn't believe was how many people complained about our support. I thought she did that to get my team to step it up a notch. What I discoverd is that there is such a negative vibe from what the customers think of my old company. Everything. Mainly support of the products. Of all the posts I read there were very few positive things that anyone wrote about the company. I really hope that they can turn things around. I mean I loved the people and I liked what I did but it was time to leave but I still have a lot of friends that work there and I wish the company the best for their sake.

When I arrived to work this guy Sean that I work with who I've become friends with pulled up next to me. As we were walking into work he asked me why I was in such a good mood. Well, it's a beautiful day today, tomorrow I get to go spend four days with the girl I love most, tonight is payday in which I will get my first full paycheck, I love my new car and I don't have to deal with the drama or stress of my old job. Those things pretty much put me in an awesome mood today.

-mbh signing off...

The end of the week...

Ah, the weekend...

Two days of nothing but relaxation, sleeping in and doing whatever I want. Today was no exception. I slept in until around 11:00am and then sat around playing my computer for a bit. My car needs to have safety and emissions done on it before I can get my plates and so I went to take it by the dealer where I bought it because they are paying for it but the place that performs it was closed. Who closes on a Saturday at 1:00pm? Since I couldn't get that done I drove around just enjoying my day off. I remembered my friend had my Yamaha PSR-282 keyboard so I went over to his place and got it. I'm so glad that I lent it to him about four years ago because if I hadn't I would have pawned it along with all my other possesions. It's a pretty decent keyboard and he kept it in great shape. After that I went up to Supersonic car wash and got a Rain-X coating on the glass and paint of my car along with a great wash. They also gave me a coupon for a free vacuuming which was nice. After that I drove around in my sparkling clean car and eventually made my way home. I dusted off my keyboard and grabbed a sandwich at Gandolfos for dinner.

I've been spacing away in front of my computer for a while until Angela got home from work and now I've been chatting with her. All in all it has been a decent weekend so far. Only one more day left.

I'm really excited for this next weekend. I'll get to see Angela again. Plus it is a long weekend due to Memorial day so that's a whole extra day of getting to be with my sweetheart. I do love her so very big much.

-mbh signing off...

I've got your title right here...

The HEAT! It's May and it is way too hot for May. Supposedly we are going to have record breaking heat this week. From 90 to 95! That's insane for mid-May. Good thing for air conditioners.

That Plextor burner that Blake got me for burning my mp3's stopped working after I burnt two DVD's. I was pissed. I sent it off to Plextor to have them replace it but I found out today that they didn't have any of that model in stock so luckily for me they have sent me a brand new DVD burner that is a model up from the original one that broke. How cool is that? In my opinion that is good business and leaves a good impression on me for Plextor products.

The work week is half over. Yay! Two more days until the weekend. Now that I don't work on weekends I actually look forward to them! Sleeping in, sitting in my boxers all day listening to music or playing games or whatever I want to. I especially love to go see Angela on the weekends. Speaking of that there is a big chance Angela will be moving to Utah for a while while before she moves to PA. I'm really excited. Finally to have her around for more than a couple of days! That would be so cool. It really sucks having her live so far away. When the distance is so much it makes it easier to appreciate the time that you have together.

I'm really enjoying my new car. The more I drive it the more comfortable it gets. It also makes me happy that Angela too loves my car. She had a lot of fun driving it this weekend and she told me that she saw a electric blue Audi A4 convertible the other day and she fell in love with it. She would look hot driving that. Actually she looks hot driving whatever. I'm glad Craig also approves of my fine piece of German automotive engineering :) One downside is having to buy premium grade fuel. Especially when gas is over three dollars a gallon for the premium stuff. The sales guy and the owners manual say that you should only put 90+ level octane in this car because the engine is a turbo or whatever. I swear it is some big scam by the oil industry to get you to spend more money at the pump. It's not like the oil companies don't already have enough money. We should take up a collection to help them out. Poor guys.

As the week goes on I hear more and more negative things about Paraben it makes me feel sad in a way because I still care what happens to the people working there and the company as a whole but I am extremely glad to be out of that situation. Especially with the things they will have to deal with that are on the horizon. Not my problem.

I'm tired. I feel like I haven't been getting near enough sleep. It might be because my body hasn't adjusted to having to wake up a lot earlier to go to work. My commute is starting to take its toll on me. Being in a car for that long everyday probably adds to why I'm so tired all the time. It's not like I'm staying up super late either. I go to bed at eleven or twelve and sometimes around ten-thirty. Maybe I should start going to bed right at ten? Who knows. Speaking of being tired and going to bed earlier...

-mbh signing off...

Feel good, merry gentleman...

I spent the weekend in Las Vegas with Angela which was really nice. I got to test out my new Audi A4 by driving the 365 miles to Vegas. It was a really comfortable ride especially comparing it to my Jetta. I love the climate controls and the power this car has. Plus the leather seats are really comfy. I arrived in Vegas pretty late and was dead tired but when I got there I was too excited to sleep and ended up staying up with Angela for three more hours before we crashed. It was nice to have the old Angela back. She seems more herself than she has been these last two months. Working two jobs and eighteen hour days will do that to a person I suppose. On Saturday we got pizza at Mark Richs which is the best pizza I have ever had and we went and saw Lucky Number Slevin at the Palms which was an awesome movie! If you like Tarentino-esque movies you should definately check this movie out. I'm a fan of Josh Harnett (and no not because we share the exact same birthday: July 21, 1978). Definately a good movie. We then enjoyed the cooler temperatures and drove around with the windows down and the sunroof open. On Sunday Angela was able to get off work early and we went to the park to sit in the shade by the waterfall and the pond. It was chill and enjoyable. The drive home was even nice. I already miss Angela a ton and can't wait to see her again.

These last couple weeks numerous people have asked me about my leaving Paraben (most have applauded it as a good move also). At first I wasn't so sure about leaving Paraben but the money was a no brainer. After these last two weeks I'm feeling better and better about my decision because of things I have realized and noticed about Paraben. It's easier to see things when you step out of the box and look in instead of being trapped in the box not being able to see out. With that I'm very comfortable with the choice that I made. The writing was on the wall and I'm glad I read it this time.

Plus more than doubling your monthly income is ALWAYS a good thing.

Anyways,

-mbh signing off...

Just in for summer...

I bought a new car today. A Black 2002 Audi A4 1.8T with 29k miles on it. It's pretty sweet. It has black leather interior, moonroof, CD/Tape/Radio and a whole bunch of features I haven't had the chance to screw around with yet but I will when I pick it up at 5:30PM tonight.

I'll have the pleasure of driving it to Las Vegas tonight to see Angela. I'm really excited to see her. It's been over two months since I last saw her. What's up with that!? We had a rough last two months especially with Angela working two jobs and eighteen hour days. We didn't get to see or talk to each other much which took its toll on us both; especially her. But she is back to working one job and things are getting back to how they used to be in our relationship. It makes me very happy.

The only difference between the car in the pictures and mine is mine has dark tinted windows.

Anyways, here is the car I just bought, check it out:














2002 Audi A4 1.8T from the side.















2002 Audi A4 1.8T from the front.

-mbh signing off...

m is for mbh...

Well now... I've been working at my new job now for a little over a week. Yup. I have a new job. I work at LANDesk up in South Jordan, Utah. So far so good. I'm still getting the hang of things and doing the "new guy" thing. Changing jobs is a stressful thing. It's not like being unemployed and then finding a job because you NEED a job. But moving from one job to another is harsh. You don't know if you'll like it or how you will fit in and you make a ton of comparisons from your old job. I wouldn't say I hate my new job but I wouldn't say I love it either. I can tell you right now I love what they are paying me (I'll love it more when I get my first full paycheck) but I'm sure I'll learn to like this job more and more as the days go by. Plus I know in my heart that it is only temporary so it's all good.

As you can tell from my past few blog entries that I had been hitting a low point. I was depressed and stressed from a lot of different things that were going on in my life. Things are definately turning around. I'm not out in the clear quite yet but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Anyways my lunch break is over and I have to get back to work.

-mbh signing off...

Skin and bones...

This morning right before I got in the shower I brushed my teeth and took my t-shirt off. I was standing sideways in front of the mirror and out of the corner of my eye I noticed myself in the mirror. I looked much too skinny. I thought it was because I didn't have my glasses on so I grabbed them and just stared at myself. I look extremely skinny. It shouldn't have come as a surprise to me. I haven't been eating. I can't remember when I stopped eating but I just don't eat much anymore. I have no appetite. Food rarely sounds good. I didn't really think about it much until I saw myself in the mirror. I mean, I'm not pre-rehab skinny (135lbs!) but I would definately say I'm way under my average 155-160. Since noticing that it feels like all my clothes are huge on me. Must be my mind playing tricks on me.

-mbh signing off...