Everything, whatever, sure...

Is it Friday yet? No? Well, that sucks. This week hasn't really started out that well. Three days until Thursday. Ugh. I know I really shouldn't be that nervous but I am. On one hand, I'm glad to get this over with. On the other hand, well, I'm scared shit-less.

Work has been really blah lately. Maybe it's just me but I have been really unmotivated at work. Actually, I've been unmotivated period. Maybe it's the hour long commute in the morning that usually isn't that bad but lately hasn't been as enjoyable as it used to be. Maybe it's the fog, or all the car wrecks every morning that just piss me off. Maybe it's this head cold or maybe winter. I hate winter time. I'm so ready for mid-March. Screw this winter cold stuff.
I'm ready for a change. I don't care what that change is as long as it is something on the postive side. I'm sick of change for the worse.

You know, I had every intention of sitting down and writing a good long blog but I'm just not feeling it tonight. I'm in a bad mood. Angela had a rough day today, I had a rough day. Not much went our way which is frustrating because it seems like NOTHING ever goes our way. Nothing but stupid shit anyways.

I'm tired.

-mbh signing off...

Septic lullabies and uranium...

I'm so glad the week is over. This next week is going to be a rough and stressful one. That much is guaranteed on Thursday. Not much I can do about it. I'll take my lumps and see where I'm left standing at the end of the day.

I'm so sick of winter. Today was really cold and the morning was really foggy. I want February to cruise by. Depending on Thursday I'm going to be planning another trip back east to Pennsylvania which could possibly be something to really look forward to next month.

I've been missing Angela a lot lately. It's been so long since I've seen her that it's driving me nuts and making me crazier. Only a little bit longer before I get to see her again though. Plus, I'll get to see her on a permanent basis which is going to be the best thing ever. Just have to hang on a little bit longer. Bad things always happen when we are apart and good things always happen when we are together so the sooner the better.

I always feel like there is a big part of me missing when I go too long without her. When she is around I always think much clearer and she helps me keep my head on straight. She's a great listener and something real and tangible I can grab onto for support. I need and want that in my life.

No doubt about it.

None whatsoever.

I LOVE YOU ANGELA!

-mbh signing off...

The fortune for today...

I grabbed a leftover fortune cookie from some luncheon the big-wigs had. (I had hunger). I busted that sucker open and read my fortune... Usually fortune cookies have lame ass fortunes about forever happiness and friends and money, blah, blahity, blah! Ho oh, not this puppy! I was taken aback. Seriously. Thought about it for a minute and then said outloud "True enough."

I took a tack and posted it right next to my pictures of Angela so that everyday I can read the wisdom that some 4 year-old sweatshop worker stuffed into the sugary goodness which was a fortune cookie.

The fortune you ask?

Try this one on for size (I loved it):

The strong person knows how to withstand substantial loss.
-anonymous

So true you anonymous wiseman. So true.

-mbh signing off...

Ode to the head cold...

This blog entry could most definately be blank. Yup, I've sat here staring at the little blinking cursor for way too long (damn you blinky cursor! damn you to hell!)

I feel like the shitty. So I wrote a little ditty. Here... er... goes:

Ode to Feeling of the Shitty Head Cold

by i mbh

Head cold, head cold

In my head, making me miserable

Wishing I was dead, an extra helping of pain

Just for kicks, thank God it's just a head cold

And not the shits. My nose is raw

Bleeding and red, I've spent the last three days

Face down in my bed. Being sick is really sucky

Smelling like feet, feeling extremely yucky

So this is my ode you, ode to the head cold

Get beat up head cold, get beat up and die!

-i mbh signing off...

Blue Formica Halo...

It's 8:08AM. I should be on my way to work. MASSIVE SNOW STORM heading south from SLC where I work. Just dandy. Thank the snow Gods for ESP slip control in de Audee.

I love music and I want to do a Top "#" list.

Artists Top 5:
#1: Duran Duran (yes I'm a Duranie)
#2: Underworld
#3: Gary Numan
#4: The Police
#5: DJ Sasha

Runners up: Depeche Mode, NiN, The Cure, Pink Floyd, The Cult, Oingo Boingo, BT, R.E.M. and most the groups on my Myspace page.

Albums Top 10:
#1: Duran Duran - Rio
#2: Underworld - Second Toughest in the Infants
#3: DJ Sasha - Airdrawndagger
#4: Underworld - Dubnobasswithmyheadman
#5: Duran Duran - Medazzaland
#6: Gary Numan - Jagged
#7: Leftfield - Leftism
#8: The Police - Greatest Hits
#9: R.E.M. - Murmur
#10: BT - Movement in Still Life

Runners up: Duran Duran - Greatest, Underworld - Beacoup Fish, Pink Floyd - Momentary Lapse of Reason, Pink Floyd - The Wall, The Cure - Mixed Up, Depeche Mode - Violator, Duran Duran - Notorious, Gary Numan - Pure, Gary Numan - Exile, R.E.M. - Green, Limp Bizkit - The Chocolate Starfish and the Hotdog Flavored Water, NiN - The Fragile, NiN - [With_Teeth].

Damn, way late for work. Got to jet.

-mbh signing off...

Another 50/50 year ends...

2oo6 has come to a close. Thank God!

Not that it really matters because life is still life no matter what day or year it is. Nothing really special with the ending of zero six. Just another night. Another long (it really did feel long) year is down in the history books. Down in my comp. notebooks anyways. Once again it was an up and down year. Quite a stressful year at that. Looking back on the year I would say I have made some good choices and some bad. Hopefully the good out-weighs the bad. Well, more like 50/50. I really need to work on having an 80/20 year. I'm still waiting for that kind of year. I feel like with all the shit I've been through it's about time I had an 80/20 year. 80 percent good and 20 percent bad. Yeah, I can live with a year like that.

What about 2007? Will it be the 80/20 year I've been waiting for? Sheesh. Life isn't getting any easier and it's pissing me off.

New Year's resolutions? Pfftt... well...

1. Try to keep my head on straight. (Straighter perhaps?)
2. 80/20 woot.

That about does it for resolutions.

I don't really feel like writing. When I feel like writing I'll do a "Year-In-Review" blog post. Maybe.

-mbh signing off...